The life and struggles of a fat girl fighting her way to skinny!
Author: Gift Delight
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Man, I have to get better at taking pictures of my food! I cook like crazy and then I forget. Yesterday was a good cooking day. I got to impress my father-in-law and his girlfriend with some healthy cooking. My father-in-law is Puerto Rican and doesn’t step outside his box very much when it comes to cooking stuff other than his Puerto Rican cuisine, which doesn’t bother me one bit, because I am totally weak when it comes to Latin cuisine.
Yesterday I cooked some Asian pork meatballs, zucchini noodles with an avocado cream sauce, cauliflower rice, and chopped avocado with olive oil and balsamic vinegar. We dipped the meatballs in the remaining avocado cream sauce. Everything turned out so good and we had such an enjoyable dinner. I amazed them with my spiralizer and my not so Latin rice.
I think the only thing I would do differently is maybe add a little cilantro to my avocado cream sauce. My husband said it was a little bland, but that also could be due to not letting it sit for a bit to allow the flavors to meld. However, I am going to use the cream sauce again tonight, add a little cilantro and blacken some tilapia. I am going to remember to take that picture – I think 🙂
So this week I am going to exercise. I am committing my words for the world to see so we will see what I turn out for exercise. I can tell you one exercise will be walking the dog. We have a Jack Russell and she belongs to my son. He is away at college and doesn’t get to see her enough. He stayed at the house Friday night and kept her with him the whole time. However, Saturday he was busy working outside on his car and left her in. She was so upset with him for not taking her anywhere. I told him before he left Saturday evening it would be a bad night and it was, one in the morning and she was howling a terrible cry. Then she started again at seven in the morning. I have been so busy that I haven’t been able to get her out to view the scenery, so I have to make sure I get her out too. I am also going to do some piyo exercises, because I love doing pilates and yoga so what could be better than combining them.
I will be doing some meal planning this week. My Autumn Fix group on Facebook officially kicks off next Monday, so it is a good time to start thinking about it. I am still 152 this morning, but I truly think that number is going to start changing drastically very soon!
Well, I didn’t crumble and didn’t fall off the face of the Earth, just frustrated. I weighed on Monday and I was 152. That is soooooo frustrating when I actually made it to 149. However, it wasn’t the best of weekends as I took my mom to a birthday dinner Saturday and of course had to show up at the Texas Roadhouse starving, which means I enjoyed a roll with butter and then some of the onion blossom that was set on the table. Saturday night I enjoyed a slice of Cheesecake Factory cheesecake because dumb me bought a box at Sam’s Club and I adore the white chocolate blueberry cheesecake. Sunday I rode with my husband to a service call and both of us were starving when he got done so we found the first place, which happened to be a Chinese buffet. So the result of all of this wasn’t just the fact that I gained three pounds, but I felt so bad when I got up Sunday morning, just like a Mack truck hit me in the face. I hate that horrible feeling and don’t miss it at all. I have that feeling every single day when I don’t eat Paleo due to my poor sinuses and allergies at optimum torture.
While I still felt like utter crap on Monday, I was definitely back on track and frustrated when I stepped on the scale that morning. I have ate well since Monday and have enjoyed my crispy chicken thighs, salmon, veggies, and chicken salad. The salmon was prepared with an Allrecipes recipe of maple glazed salmon. It was absolutely delicious. The chicken thighs I prepared in the oven by putting them on the top shelf and baking at 400 for one hour. I love how the tops of the skin get so crispy. The best thing is, it’s chicken thighs so they aren’t dry either. I didn’t have time Sunday to do prep work, so I have done very well with the simple things I made this week. A friend of mine has recommended the Instant Pot, which cooks your food in a very short amount of time. I will be looking into buying this soon, as I have seen numerous recipes that are Paleo using an Instant Pot.
Tuesday afternoon a woman messages me on Facebook because I liked her picture she had posted. It was some Fall challenge post. I live in Florida so we don’t know what the Fall season is, but you still get into the thought of Fall with pumpkin spices and the aroma of cinnamon, apples, and more. After talking and getting through everything regarding the challenge I realize she is a Beach Body coach. She didn’t push anything hard on me and I enjoyed our conversation. She is a former attorney, highly intelligent and appealed to me immediately because I learned she doesn’t have her thyroid. Before I get to this lady, if you have thyroid disease you feel my frustration when it comes to losing weight and trying to feel good. So when I meet people like her or like Jillian Michaels, anyone who found optimum health regardless of their thyroid function, I am immediately intrigued.
So back to this lady named Lori. She is very encouraging, motivating, and a big help. She found out I have the Piyo dvd, which also means I know about Shakeology. I did my research and I like all the stuff that Shakeology has, but I am not willing to come off my wallet for that amount of money. It is very tempting, but I can’t see spending $130 a month for only me to drink shakes all month. I have a son in wrestling at his high school and I think he would benefit from the vitamins, minerals, and protein. I would also like my husband to drink some as well. After some searching I settled on the brand Vega One. I was impressed with the amount of protein, vitamins, minerals, and greens they offered. For half the price my house will enjoy the shakes.
This is my third morning drinking a shake for breakfast and I have to say I really feel good. I have been having some terrible exhaustion, but I truly think this is due to a few things: My thyroid levels aren’t the best right now, I don’t take any type of vitamins because of having interstitial cystitis (I hate having to pee every 15 minutes due to my bladder becoming inflamed from the vitamins), and I am in menopause. Shoot, Tuesday night when I got home from work I decided to lay down for a quick cat nap only to sleep for two and a half hours. I hate not having the motivation to do anything when I get home, not even exercise, I just feel like a zombie. However, I can honestly say I am not feeling that for these past two days.
By the way, when I did weigh this morning I weighed 150, so at least the weight is coming off again. I know it will continue to come off, just not as quick as I would like. So back to Lori again, she asked me yesterday about joining her challenge, which is definitely not in my budget right now. I really do not want to purchase any shakes. Who knows, maybe later when I am rich J! I did purchase a 21-day fix. I get some recipes, containers for food portioning, a dvd, I can’t remember everything. It cost $60, which I am willing to part with because I do see the benefit. So soon I will have these cute little portion containers and I will let you know how that works for me.
So my plans this weekend —– school work, prep food for next week, ride with my husband on the motorcycle, clean some house, maybe actually exercise for the first time in a while, and drink some shakes. The shakes are flaring up my IC (interstitial cystitis), but it doesn’t last long and that is the sacrifice I am willing to make in order to get some energy in my body.
So if you have any opinions or advice on what I had to say today please feel free to comment. I will let you know what I wind up cooking this weekend. I am still in love with Julie Bauer right now, so I am sure it will probably be from her cookbook!
This was a great food and family weekend! My brother and his family are down from New Jersey visiting so we had a cookout. I wanted to be able to show my family some great HEALTHY food! After pouring over all the recipes I settled on Julie Bauer’s Buffalo Chicken Casserole, her Apple Cinnamon Muffins, and her “Peanut Butter” and Jelly Ice Cream. Since I had a ton of prep for shish kabobs on the grill I also made her fish tacos from her new Paleo Cookbook the night before for dinner. I wasn’t planning on making all of Julie’s recipes, but I am glad I did. She pops flavor in everything she makes. It takes a special palate to cook up dishes like this.
I was thinking about making numerous recipes from the same Paleo contributor for a full meal then I only talk about that person, like how Julie Bauer gets my attention today. I crave full flavor in my meals so I was so impressed with everything I made. I bought her new cookbook the other day, because she kept tempting me with her Buffalo Chicken Casserole which looked absolutely delicious. Everyone in my house thought it was chicken dip instead of a side dish. I was so proud to give them such a great selection of food. My older brother even made the comment all the food I made takes nothing like “diet” food. Now, that’s a compliment!
Only variation I made to Julie Bauer’s recipe was I left my stupid grocery list at home when I headed to the store, so I wound up using almond butter for her ice cream recipe instead of the sunflower seed butter and I didn’t use any jam. Then I didn’t make apple cinnamon muffins, only a loaf cake because my lazy butt didn’t want to pour batter into each individual cup. Everything really did turn out outstanding and my family was definitely impressed. My brothers decided the ice cream would make an excellent coffee creamer, so we wound up with four cups of coffee filled with my ice cream creamer. Yet another perfect compliment.
I haven’t lost any weight this weekend, but I ate a lot yesterday and had plenty of carbs thanks to sweet potatoes, almond butter ice cream, my apple cake, and finishing off with a smoothie in the evening. No worries because I do still feel good and I am looking forward to the new week. I am going to work on cutting back on my carb intake this week, because it truly is a bit much when you are looking to lose weight. So, still fat, sassy, and a whole lot happy!
So a great weekend of eating clean! Weekends are my worst enemy. Nothing like a mixed drink to unwind or a fattening appetizer with the hubby on Friday night. Sunday I made a shepherd’s pie and replaced the mashed potatoes with mashed cauliflower. That huge dish will last a few days for sure. I also made paleo sandwich bread, which I love to make. This the best bread I have had to date and I like the fact that it’s not store bought so I know exactly what goes in it. I also made a Paleo carrot cake for dessert. I forgot to add the applesauce to it, so I can’t wait to try it again. It still tasted good, but I am thinking it will be a little more moist with the applesauce.
I lost another pound so I am down to 150. I haven’t seen the 140’s in quite some time. I will start exercising soon, so if you have anything great to offer for exercise feel free to comment. Just wanted to share a few pics of my Sunday cooking and link to some recipes.
For the Paleo Shepherd’s Pie, I just reviewed other recipes and came up with my own. I used ground turkey instead of beef (husband is allergic to beef), carrots, green beans, peas, and topped off with the mashed cauliflower. For my seasoning I used sofrito, which is a base used in Puerto Rican dishes. I will include a link to an excellent recipe below.
You can find the recipe for the Paleo sandwich bread here at The Guilty Kitchen:
One thing I love, love, love about sofrito is it is the perfect base for your main dish. I don’t have a picture to share, but I will get one on my next dish that I use it. Best thing is it’s all natural ingredients and it’s packed full of flavor! It makes a large batch and then I bag 1/2 cup in sandwich bags and put in the freezer for future use. El Boricua is a site that contains authentic Puerto Rican dishes and this is where I found my favorite. http://elboricua.com/sofrito.html – For sure, you won’t be disappointed in the flavors this base brings to your dishes.
Oh my Lord! That’s all I could say when I read how long it was since my last post.
As I sit here enjoying my lunch, eating a delicious Paleo Stuffed Sweet Potato (recipe courtesy of Danielle Walker from Against All Grain) I think back to my situation two weeks ago. However, before I get to that, I am sooooooo ashamed I haven’t been here in one whole year! And guess what? I weigh 151 after thankfully having lost four pounds of inflammation in the past two weeks. I was five pounds heavier than exactly one year ago.
I got a new job around this time last year and have been stressed ever since. I love my job, but its demands, the demands of school, and top that dessert off with buying a new house, I am definitely in worse shape than I was last year. Two weeks ago I lost a whole night’s sleep with my stomach nauseous and my back throbbing. I went to the doctor’s the next day and was directed to urgent care to be checked for a kidney stone. No kidney stones, but my stomach is so inflamed near my pancreas the doctor couldn’t tell if I had pancreatitis or ulcers. After another hour passes I discover I don’t have pancreatitis, but the doctor is pretty sure I have ulcers.
After reading about ulcers it made total sense. My sensitivity to chocolate was the biggest indicator or if I had any sugar, both of them caused me a ton of stomach pain. This definitely was my kick-in-the-head moment as I was in so much pain and completely miserable. I had already been miserable for a long time as I have ate well then ate bad over and over again. I love Paleo recipes and cook them quite often. My problem though are lunch meetings that involve fried chicken tenders, or buffalo boneless wings, or bread with that lovely dipping oil, and quite possibly an ice cream cone here and there.
I have also found a great relaxation technique these past three months as I float around my pool on the weekend at night with my husband enjoying a glass of Fireball Whiskey on the rocks. And sometimes it will be Friday night and then again Saturday night. Alcohol can wreak havoc on a terrible stomach along with my regular doses of Ibuprofen or Naproxen. Who knew NSAIDS were bad for me? Let’s just say I am creating the perfect cocktail of destruction on my body.
While my stomach isn’t perfect, it is definitely better than it was two weeks ago. I know it doesn’t take much to send it in a tailspin. I truly have made the decision (I know – a year later!) to change my ways. I really don’t want to die from a bleeding ulcer. I also know the more that time passes, and the older I get, things are going to take a harder toll on my health.
Who knows how ulcers happen in individuals. I mean, obviously there is too much acid. Buy why? My doctor believes most are primarily due to allergies. I have to agree with him in that matter, because I know when I ate strict Paleo I had absolutely no problems, I didn’t even take my allergy meds. However, when I eat carbs and bad foods that I shouldn’t, my face is a swollen and puffy mess every day as I wake up feeling like crap.
So, while we aren’t all the same, I would hope my journey is somewhat of an eye opener to someone else. I have hypothyroidism, I am perimenopause, I suffer from chronic sinusitis, my allergies are always in an uproar, and I have ulcers. None of these are a benefit to me, but I can’t let them get me down or stop me from doing what I need to do, which is eat better and lose the weight I need to lose. I would hope you feel the same about yourself and find that kick-in-the-head moment to finally do something about it!
Here is Danielle Walker’s recipe for the Stuffed Sweet Potato:
150 pounds – sshhhhh, but don’t tell my husband!!! I am 5’1″ and overweight. I am so, so mad at myself, because I know what it takes to lose, but I find myself eating things I shouldn’t. I promised myself I would lose back in April, because beach season was coming – but I didn’t. I have been doing this to myself now for the past two years. I say today is the day so many times I have lost count.
I learned about eating paleo and primal back in 2011. It was wonderful and I found myself with a new lease on life. I noticed all my aches and pains going away, the pounds whittling away and a new woman emerging. Fast forward, I currently read all my favorite bloggers, still cook paleo meals, but also cheat, eat and cheat some more.
I am so addicted to sugar that I can’t say no once I start. I see sites and comments where people will say to allow yourself a cheat meal – that’s not me. I will see where they say allow yourself that donut – that’s not me. Once I start all games are off! It’s not that I spend my day gorging on a dozen doughnuts and feeling miserable because I don’t do that. Instead it’s eating four Tootsie Rolls in the evening because I am creating party favors. Then the next day it’s stopping by McDonald’s for a vanilla cone dipped in chocolate. Then the next day it’s starving when I walk in the door and instead of taking the time to make a salad, it’s grabbing the bag of Doritos and eating a handful to satisfy my stomach. I truly think sugars and carbs are my alcoholism, they are my drug, once I start I can’t stop and then I have to find my way back to rehab.
So now I am rehabbing. I am putting my life out there on blast for the world to see, because that’s what we do now in our time. We want the world to recognize and see us. Mine is more about accountability. If you see me, the big me, the raw me then I have no excuse. I am only going to let myself down again if I turn back.
I have many strikes against me, which makes it more difficult to lose weight. I have passed the 40 mark. I will be 42 in November and your metabolism slows down after 40. I have hypothyroidism, which means my metabolism and my immune system takes a big hit. Obesity, high blood pressure, thyroid disease, gut problems and many other ailments run in my family. However, none of these things should ever hold a person back. I hate it when people give up and accept their life for the way it is.
So today is a new day and YES, today is the day it is going to change. I truly hope I find support on here and you join me. And I hope when it’s all said and done I become your inspiration and you become mine.